okay..if u go on fanfiction.net...u can find this,but i so had to put this up here!


~I try to regain my breath, panting and feeling weak after all the chakra Susano’o took up. You’ve become strong, Sasuke. Very strong. I’m proud of you. Now that Orochimaru has been removed from you, there are no more obstacles in your way. I’ll transfer all of my techniques to you, including Ameterasu. You tried to stop me, but your attacks are useless against my shield.

I should be happy for you, that you will be able to return, and I am, of course. But there’s still the one little part of me, the selfish part that doesn’t want to let go, that wishes there could be a different ending to this. But wishing will do nothing. Can you understand how I feel, little brother? I hope not. I hope you never have to know what I feel right now. No one should have to experience the same kind of pain I have…

No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man
To be the sad man
Behind blue eyes

I played my role well, didn’t I? The role of the villain, pretending to be good so no one knows the truth. I played that role perfectly. Almost too perfectly. It was as if I was born for this, born to hurt and kill the ones I love, to choose between family and duty. But I could never sacrifice you… that was my greatest flaw. But I don’t regret it. I never will. by now my steps are faltering, uneven. The only thing keeping me going at this point is sheer force of will. I can tell that you’re afraid as I approach you. You try to hide it, but I’ve long since learned how to read you, little brother.

And no one knows
What it's like to be hated
To be fated, to telling only lies

I still remember that night like it was yesterday. How long has it been since then? Eight years? Nine? I still haven’t forgotten. I know you haven’t either. I can still see your face, your horrified expression when I told you I killed our parents to measure my capacity. It was a lie. Everything, every little thing I told you that night was a lie. But you believed it. So did the rest of Konoha, excluding the elders, Danzou, and the Sandaime. But now that the Sandaime is dead, Danzou and the elders are the only ones who know the truth. And they will tell no one. You’ll carry through your entire life thinking I was evil and the Uchiha was a clan to be proud of, if I do everything right. And I will. I can feel my body rejecting my control, shutting down. But this lie is one I’ve maintained for far too long to let it fall now… I take another staggering step towards you. I’m almost there. Just a little longer…

But my dreams, they aren't as empty
As my conscience seems to be.
I have hours, only lonely
My love is vengeance
That's never free

I’ve done terrible things. I know that I can never properly justify killing out clan, but I still believe I made the right decision for that time. I slaughtered my clan so the rest of the village and the entire ninja world could have peace. But not you. I could never kill you, no matter what. You where the only one I spared, and in some ways that is more cruel than letting you die. That was just another bit of my selfishness, my weakness. I couldn’t bring myself to end your life, and even if I could go back to that night, I wouldn’t do it now.

No one knows what it’s like
To feel these feelings
Like I do, and I blame you!
No one bites back as hard
On their anger
None of my pain and woe
Can show through.

Nobody understands how I feel. Sometimes I wish there were someone to talk to, someone who would know what it’s like to be the bad man. But there’s no one. Because they don’t regret, don’t wish things could have gone another way. They all have their reasons, but their reasons are nothing like mine. Ever since that night, that time, everything I’ve done has all been a farce. A superbly maintained farce, but a farce nonetheless. Nothing I’ve done has been sincere, nothing has been real. My life after I was a missing-nin was all fake. I can’t let any of my true emotions show, because that would undo everything I’ve been trying ot do. I have to reign in all my feelings, my anger, sadness, remorse, and keep on pretending to be the heartless one. Transferring all my powers to you will be the one genuine act I’ve done in years. Maybe that’s one thing that moves me to press on. Knowing that the farce will only have to last a little longer.

No one knows what its like
To be mistreated, to be defeated
Behind blue eyes
No one knows how to say
That they're sorry and don't worry
I'm not telling lies

I can feel your fear. My eyes will soon see no more, but your fear is palpable in the air. I can barely detect where you are, but it’s enough. My years in the ANBU weren’t for nothing, after all. I want so badly to tell you that everything will be okay, that you don’t have to worry. I want to tell you that I’m sorry for everything I did, sorry for killing out clan, sorry for not telling you the truth. That I’m still who I was. Because that wouldn’t be a lie. None of it would. But I can’t. Won’t. Because doing so would be unraveling everything I’ve worked for, everything I’ve achieved. Everything I did, I didn’t do for Konoha, or for the Fire country, or even the world. I did it all for you.

I’ve gained many names and labels through my actions: clan-slayer, cold one, soulless, S-rank, rogue ninja, Uchiha Itachi. But none of these names describe who I really am... Your Onii-chan. That will never change.

I take my final step, and use all of my energy to lift my hand. There is confusion in your eyes, but fear dominates. With the last of my strength, I poke your forehead lightly, just like old times. The good times, when you still called me Onii-chan. My smile is the first in a long time.

“Sorry, Sasuke… but there won't be a next time.”

No one knows what it's like
To be the bad man, to be the sad man
Behind blue eyes.~